Alright, the silence here is deafening. I've been swamped, (mostly work, some play) but this is too much!
Just FYI, I've been feeling an undercurrent of freak-out-itude these days. I'm realizing that I'm going to have to make some decisions about where I want to go with this whole science and science journalism thing. You know, career life in general.
I really, really enjoyed work this summer, and I know I want to involve writing in my future career path. But it's time to break it down into specifics. It's traditional to do a postdoc after getting a biomed. research Ph.D. Do I want to do that? Is it necessary? Would I gain any good experiences from it? Also, "writing" is pretty damn broad. Do I want to pursue work for a biotech company? Perhaps for a research journal? Or a mass media outlet? I feel a big pull towards mass media. But it's hardly a field I have any training in, really. I also think it would also be really cool to teach, specifically at a small liberal-arts type of university... and this leads me to thoughts of combining things. Could I teach and freelance?
I've also been thinking about where I want to be, location-wise. Finding that balance between living somewhere I enjoy, and somewhere that's work-compatible, while taking into consideration how close I want to be to people who are important to me.
All I know right now is that I want to finish grad school. Sooner is preferable to later, so I need to focus on my research now, yet still keep these other aforementioned ideas in mind so I seek some experience in these "non-traditional" career paths.
The existential crisis at hand, which is really not a crisis at all but just classic Nicole Overthinking Shit, was mostly precipitated by the flurry of questions which I've been getting about my summer. Especially being interviewed by a in-house reporter here at the medical center (very weird being on the other side of the questions) about what led me to doing that fellowship, discussing what I want to do now, etcetera.
And when I further try to figure out what brought on these changes, this rethinking of things, I summarize it in two words: New York. Yes, in ten weeks flat. It's not just the city, but the people I spent time with, the work I did... yet I still feel like New York sums it up. I know. It's so horribly cliche. It pains me with its cliche! I mean, I'm *from* (the) New York (City metropolitan area) -- I obviously didn't think it was so great when I used to live in (the) New York (City metropolitan area) -- so, why was I so impressed?!
And *then* that REM single, "Leaving New York," comes out, all....
"You might have succeeded in changing me
I might have been turned around...
Leaving New York never easy..."
Oh good GOD. It's not even that great a song! But nevertheless I become all sappy, remembering... love... for a city and its vibe and energy and culture, structure, architecture, and writing and a boy and the wonder of meeting and connecting with new people and old friends and still with so many more people I wanted to see, things I wanted to do...
Well, yeah, you get the idea.
I just had to get that out in the open. Sorry. but I feel better having that all out there.
Now! Back to our regularly scheduled programming, which is... oh, right. There is no regularly scheduled programming.
Just FYI, I've been feeling an undercurrent of freak-out-itude these days. I'm realizing that I'm going to have to make some decisions about where I want to go with this whole science and science journalism thing. You know, career life in general.
I really, really enjoyed work this summer, and I know I want to involve writing in my future career path. But it's time to break it down into specifics. It's traditional to do a postdoc after getting a biomed. research Ph.D. Do I want to do that? Is it necessary? Would I gain any good experiences from it? Also, "writing" is pretty damn broad. Do I want to pursue work for a biotech company? Perhaps for a research journal? Or a mass media outlet? I feel a big pull towards mass media. But it's hardly a field I have any training in, really. I also think it would also be really cool to teach, specifically at a small liberal-arts type of university... and this leads me to thoughts of combining things. Could I teach and freelance?
I've also been thinking about where I want to be, location-wise. Finding that balance between living somewhere I enjoy, and somewhere that's work-compatible, while taking into consideration how close I want to be to people who are important to me.
All I know right now is that I want to finish grad school. Sooner is preferable to later, so I need to focus on my research now, yet still keep these other aforementioned ideas in mind so I seek some experience in these "non-traditional" career paths.
The existential crisis at hand, which is really not a crisis at all but just classic Nicole Overthinking Shit, was mostly precipitated by the flurry of questions which I've been getting about my summer. Especially being interviewed by a in-house reporter here at the medical center (very weird being on the other side of the questions) about what led me to doing that fellowship, discussing what I want to do now, etcetera.
And when I further try to figure out what brought on these changes, this rethinking of things, I summarize it in two words: New York. Yes, in ten weeks flat. It's not just the city, but the people I spent time with, the work I did... yet I still feel like New York sums it up. I know. It's so horribly cliche. It pains me with its cliche! I mean, I'm *from* (the) New York (City metropolitan area) -- I obviously didn't think it was so great when I used to live in (the) New York (City metropolitan area) -- so, why was I so impressed?!
And *then* that REM single, "Leaving New York," comes out, all....
"You might have succeeded in changing me
I might have been turned around...
Leaving New York never easy..."
Oh good GOD. It's not even that great a song! But nevertheless I become all sappy, remembering... love... for a city and its vibe and energy and culture, structure, architecture, and writing and a boy and the wonder of meeting and connecting with new people and old friends and still with so many more people I wanted to see, things I wanted to do...
Well, yeah, you get the idea.
I just had to get that out in the open. Sorry. but I feel better having that all out there.
Now! Back to our regularly scheduled programming, which is... oh, right. There is no regularly scheduled programming.
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